As I come closer to my 36th year completing, I wonder why I haven't done more to become happy. I don't understand what I need to do to get there. Is it fame? Fortune? Greed? Wealth? For me, it's none of the above.
I'd be miserable with fame. Why would I do that to myself? Granted, I have several talents which could probably generate lots of money for me and get me out of my financial ruins, but I wouldn't be happy. I wouldn't want to be watched 24/7 by paparazzi. I wouldn't want someone to try to create me into something the masses want. I wouldn't want to be loved for something that truly wouldn't be me. I just want to be me, and have enough to live, not survive.
Wealth would not make me happy. I'd feel as if the world would want a piece of me because of it. I'd feel as if those would take advantage of me because of it. Greed would not make me happy because so many people have come to me in my time of need with a helpful hand. I would want to pay that forward.
What could make me happy? Having enough to live and not survive, although having enough of anything to survive would be nice. As I come closer to 36, I am going to examine what I need to be completely happy and not just content.
This is an excellent blog post. I love how you said you want to "enough to live, not survive" --- so true! What peace of mind that is. I wish that for you too. Keep writing, Jenna! I feel you have a lot just waiting to come out! ;) -Des
ReplyDeleteThe search for happiness... spiritual, uplifting, energizing... Keep at it. Never give up. Always LIVE.
ReplyDeleteMy dad shared a quote with me years ago. Your turn now:
"It doesn't happen all at once. You become. It takes a long time." ~ Margery Williams